i am a seeker.
i often find myself restless - and i have a lot of questions about life.
i tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. i am most comfortable when i am far away from home.
i am quite passionate and easily tempted.
my impulses sometimes get me into trouble.
i am well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
i'm solid and dependable. i'm loyal, and people can count on me.
At times, i can be a bit too serious.
i tend to put too much pressure on myself.
i am unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
i may miss out by not settling down, but i'm too busy having fun to care.
i'm friendly and warm.
i get along with almost everyone.
i work hard not to rock the boat.
my easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, i can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, i pull it together.
i am a free spirit, and i resent anyone who tries to fence me in.
i am balanced, orderly, and organized. i like my ducks in a row.
i'm powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see me as stubborn and headstrong. i definitely have a dominant personality.
Monday, June 22, 2009 | 4:02 AM
BOUNCING BACK...eklabush!
DAHIL "WELCOME BACK TO SCHOOL" na... heto ang kemberlloo kong blogpost por all opyu.
Problems at school, hassles with parents, relationship troubles - teenagers have many reasons to view life as being full of setbacks. Normal lang naman daw ang mafeel naten minsan ang DOWN AT HOPELESS. But here are the some ways to feel better:
TALK IT OVER..
-- - -open up to people you trust. Huwag ka na lang mahiya nohh.. for sure mangangailangan din ang mga yan ng help next time. Plus, if you tried to shared your MOUNTAIN-LIKE mind bogglers to some of your BERKS, sigurado, makakEXHALE ka ng tunay.
TAKE CHARGE
-- - sometimes, big chances are hard, so do something that makes you feel in control. It could be as simple as wearing clothes that make you feel confident. [[kudos for my English statement..]]
GET EXPERT ADVICE
-- - look out your best COUNSELLOR. Pweydi ang iyong PARENTS. Or to stay anonymous, kung gusto mo di ka kilala, you may call a helpline or crisis line.
DO SOMETHING YOU’RE GOOT AT.
-- - [[ nagets nyo ba ang title ? tama bva construction paper ko?]]. Do all the stuffs your good at. [[inuleeyt!]] kung magaling kang magdrawing, magdrawing ka sa isang billboard! Kung magalilng ka nmn kumanta, magconcert ka sa may labas ng barangay nyo, kung magaling kang tumambleng, ay punta ka sa karnibal.. kung magaling ka nmn tumawa, go to mental hosp! ching leeengng. Pero, yun na yon.
TAKE IT ONE DAY AT TIME
-- - don’t worry about long term consequences. “you could be fighting your best friend. And the next day, you’ve forgotten what the fight was even about.” [[kudos ulet ng mga ten tayms.]]
LAUGH
- - - watch a funny show of joke with friends: LAUGHTER IS A GREAT STRESS RELIEVER.
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klapepey! klapepey! klapepey!wahaha!
ayos!
so yon... i'd be happy if one of my reader's would take and savor my advice..
i love you!
hihihihi!!
kudos por me!
- - -TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
15th: end of my HIATUS
june 15. 1:30 am, nagising ako with my headset was still nakapasak sa earpiece ko or whatever! bsta geon... it's still playing since i sleep.
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
errr... anong koneerk sa pagising ko?! bwiset. excitd ko nmn. ala una pa lang. heyon.. i just thought. "tangena.. pasukan na.. i wish this would be great.". ang lamiigg.. nararamdaman ko na agad ang gutom. sakit sa tiyan! so yon... tuloy ang tulog!!
...tik tak..tik tak.... krrrrrrrrrrrnnnnnnnngggggG! ang gulat ko sa alarm clock ko. 5;30am! hhhhhhhuu.. nagdasal muna ako bfore going up. so yon, kita ko ang mga room mates ko are harok pa sa tulog. so di ko alam kung pano ako liligo. nakakahiya nmn baka makalikha ako ng ingay at magising sila. then as i wait, si kuyang nasa taas na kama, double deck kasi eon, ehh nauna nang bumaba. super kalampag ang ang eksena nya! susko. then, nagsaing xa.. ako nmn, yon! pagkakataon ko nang maligo....
di ko alam kung pano ako magbbreakfast! wla nmn akong foods na dala. nakakhiya nmn kung manghihingi ako sa mga bordmates ko! eee, pancit canton na nga lang ang kinakain nila tas hihingi pa ako, di ga't kawawa nmn sila??!!!! so, bute na lang may canteen sa baba... pero, as i see it... er! di masarap! bili n lang ako ng kape at tinapay. huhuhu... napakaPOOR ko! susko! pangskwatter ang umaga ko! dedma n lang. so yon.. ang next problem k nmn is.. pano ako TATAE?@!!! hampuch! every morning kase, sanay akong maglabs ng galit s kubeta right after mag-agahan, [[kaya daw di ako nananaba]] eeee.. di nmn ako nakakaramdam ng kulo sa chan?!! hala! scared ako!! baka sa school pa ako abutin!! wag nmn sana! tooth brush. konting punas.. pulbo.. pufffffff! "mga kuya, alis na po. una na ko wah? malayo pa kasi building ko!"
so yon..
lakad papunta sa DVM building. and after 20 minutes, thanks be to God, nakarating ako sa aming deparrrtamentong, mej0 buo pa ang katawa't maayos pa ang kulay.. [[sahinaba-haba ba nmn??!! half kilometer ba??!!! chosss!]] so yon.. as i arrived there, errr.. ako lang ba ang estudyante dito? bat parang ako lang ang freshman? asan n sila?!!! bwissseet?!! MOST PUNCTUAL ba ako?! hmffff! i hate this! so, pasok n lang ako and naki-ride on sa anu mang scenario..kopya ng schedulle..then yun.. hanggang sa mejo dumating na ang aking mga magiging classmates for 6 years... [[wish ko lang mkapasa ako ng NVAT..]]
we wait til it hits 8:30am. thats our chemistry time. so went upstairs and proceed to rm 302. errr.. may mga friends na ko.. haha! FC talga! yon... we met mrs Mora.. she's good. then, after explaining her syllabus, we tried to introduce ourselves infront of the class, just like elem pupils usually do..
"im raniel lorenzo dalisay. 16 years old. a graduate of UNIVERSITY OF BATANGAS". very proud kong sinabe... at reak nmn kagad ang mga kababayan kong batangueno.. akalain mong sa 27 na 1st year prevet, 8 kameng tubong ala-eh?! AMAZING! WONDERFUL!
so yon... pagkatpos, geon din ang nangyare sa zoology class with mr. montialto. super trip din kme sa buong laboratory builiding..hm...... PERPEK ang mga fetus ng kingdom animalia! HAYLAYKET PAKSHET!
then, hatest among the hatest..orientation... huwala leng.. nkktamad.. wanna go home na... pero my filipino pa...so yon...
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tinatamad na ata akong magshare... handame ko pang tatapusing post sa drafts!!!!
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going back....
natutuwa nmn ako't mejo marami na akong friends..kahit mejo i mean sobrang nhihirapan pa akong mag-adapt ng environment + ung puntong "ba" nila...but.. hindi ako sanay na tahimik... i miss myself.. ung maingay? ung mahilig magshare? errr.. man.....smile na lang.... i need to!!
pauwi na ako...
siyempre... walking distance... lakad lakad.. aking napagtantong....... shet.. tapos na ang kalahating dekadang pamamahinga... simula na ng panibagong daluyong. ang kolehiyo.. siguro nga..mahirap. lalo na't malayo ako sa aking pamilya. pero, itoy pagsubok lang din. maybe, i just need to prove something. and...errr.. iyak na ko!!! simula nnmn ng masidhing aralin at puyatan!!!!!! punyetttaaaaaaAA!!!
- - -TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
14TH: bwiset na kompyuter
andame2 kong gustong ishare.... malabundok na tubal na thoughts ang gusto ko nang ipublish! kaso...
ktangahan ng aming antigong kompyuter, eon...inabot ako ng alas dos! di ako nkpagcompose ng sharing at kinailangan ko nang lisanin ang batangas! erggh! badtrip ohh.. di ko lang makakalimutan ang mga pukpok ko sa monitor... ang pagkatok ko screen...ang pagpompyang sa dalwang side nya..para lang gumana at makapg-blog ako! pero...nasayang lang ang mga efforts ko sa pagkarate sa shunga nameng kompyuter....as in.... talaga nmng gusto ng humataw ng mga finger licking goodys ko! badtrip talga... talaga!!
so ayon nga.. umalis na ako.. punta na ako sa terminal ng pala-pala sa bauan. hatid ni drama queen mader. then, ang aking friendly ego...emeksena...
"ga daaawwww.. biglaan nmn eeehh.. di pa ata ako ready. gusto ko pa atang magpahtid sa mame! hala... iyak na ako!"
kaso.. huwala na akong magagawa.. i have to stand on my own! --un ohh! pakshet! pero, tunay.. dapat lang... im sixteen.. lalake... kaya,.,siyempre.. be independent na! eee ang problema nmn sa akin is......i dunno how! e kaw, lam mo? eee perstaym ko lang nmng mapapawalay sa aking mga kapatid at mutter.. hmmmmm.
*sigh*
while on my way na to cavite... ambilis pa rin ng tibok ng puso ko dahil nga badtrip pa rin ako sa aming kompyuter! siyemprre nmn ooo, pacavite na nga ako at 1 week akong di makakapagdrums sa keybord ng bonggang bongga tas geon pa sha...pablink2, paitim-itim at pakeme2 pa! bwiset!
plus sa kabadtripan ko ay ung mga bagahe kong dala... hampucha... daig ko pa ang trabahador sa pier e-eh! dalawang mala-godzilla na bag plus ung higaan ko! grraaaaabeee.. huwwwaaaa poise! as in nagdasal pa akong wala sanang makakita skeng magandang babae, at talagang magpapabangga nmn ako sa truck eee.. susko! bigye nmn ako ng kahihiyan! =DDD
so ayon... nakarating na ako sabording haus kong di kagandaha... binati nmn ako ni kuya from bulacan... then, i started to fix my bed and my lockers. tas yun.. boring na.. humiga na lng ako the whole night waitng for tomorrws pasukan... monday na bukas! wuhooOO! nervous breakdown ito. wala akong kaideideya kung panong eksena ang iddrama ko!
bahala na si God. naway may may computer shop ditong 100% mapapagkatiwalaan..
bow..
- - - - TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
Tapering Off a Phase
man!....i am stock into a placid routine! and i am soon to be crazy! i dont like this. i mean, i am not used with this kind of status. come on! urgh! i am already two weeks old in a stagnant way of daily-life. but anyway, i can now count the hours of staying here in our house. pasukan na! heywan ko lang kung eeksena nnmn and CHED saying "muli po naming susupendihin ang araw ng pasukan ng kolehiyo.". nakakatamad sila! sa totoo lang kase, gusto ko nang magstart ang class! kelangang ang six years ko ay ma-minus-an ng kahit konte! susko! it feels like i'm going back on my elementary days! eon..going back, i am still thinking on how i could adapt to my new environment. heywan ko leng din.. but it seems that Cavite has no difference to Batangas. hmm..and sa totoo lang aa... as i see it...mas-industrialized pa ng konte ang aking bayang sinilangan! so...for that...plus ten points ang mga Batangueno..deee.pero..ganon n nga! palakpakan!
as i said, bilang na ang oras ko dito...bukas...i mean.. maya-maya lang.. bbyahe na ko. [[para namang hindi uuwe eee..ga raaaw?!]] big deal ba yon?! oo.sken! this will be my first time to live independently into a very far far far far [[3 hour later..]] land...hayon. dahil nga magsstay ako duon for about 6 years..im sure there will be some KATAPUSAN-MO-NA or maybe just some changes to many used stuffs.. [[ang love ba is a STUFF?]] perhaps. but it would be only TEMPORARY. i mean, "wait ka lang..ggraduate muna ako haa..". gets mo ba parekoy? hmm. tulad na lang ng pagsswitch ko ng sim ko...as in nag-balik-loob ako sa globe. bwoahahhahaha! [[err.. hindi xa choppy!!]] kaya lang nmn kse ako nagsmart dahil ng classmates ko nung high school. eeee.. kacheap nmn ng smart! eee kea eto...asul na ulit sim ko.
there are still some things that are needed to be ended as destiny destined to. BWISET NA KAPALARAN yan ah-ah! siguro nmn its not my blogging career no.siguro..siguro lang haaaa... ung LOVE...i mean ung berpren ♥ gurpren relationship? siguro.."INTAY-KA-MUNA" xa.... the other one is...my extra curricular activities. tama ka na! dedma na sa iyo bwiset ka. i need to focus nmn sa academics! i MUST be one of the DEAN listers o kung ano mang ka-eklabooohan iyorn! tama na rin muna ang maxadong text! stop na rin muna siguro sa paglalagalag! hhhaaaayyy... *sigh*. can i make these things possible? hmf! i can make it work!!! im sure!!! pipilitin ko talaga... huh!! lalo na't hinahamon pa ako ng aking putter...kuh! puweesss..dahil ayoko nga ng computer engineering at mas pinili ang pagiging beterinaryo..gagawin ko lahat ng mga hindi nya nagagawa.ung mga tipong ikakagulat nya! nyahahahahaha!! [[por eksampol?...secret!]] deeee...basta! un na yon!
pero xmpre. may mga bagay pa rin nmng kelangang ipagpatuloy...hend my ever dearest example to that would be......MY SERVICE IN YOUTH FOR CHRIST! til my death,i promise that i'll continue evangelizing people and worshipping and praising Jesus Christ! pipilitin kong mahagilap ang mga YFC sa cavite! wuhooOO! kahit sang parte pa kayo ng kabite! eon........
masasabe ko lang....
i need to begin another episode of my life and make a wonderful successful phase of my fragile existence!! oh c'mon!
*bow ober hir..bow ober der..
napahaba ata akes! well... sabitan ng medal ang tumapos neto!
cheers senyo! tagay mga prends!!!!!
- - -TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 | 7:53 AM
CHANGE
I woke up at 3am [[aga noh?Hwoalang. Its just so “nakakailang” when somebody at your back is staring while you are writing your post especially if it is very personal…tama?]] to continue writing my not yet-finish blogpost. FYI, this post is already 2 weeks old on my drafts. So yon, I decided to finish it so that I can reduce my already balky drafts. Here it goes:
While I am reminiscing some wonderful thoughts of my past, my ego started to knock again over the door of my mind.. saying “change the reality!!!”. Then I began typing my first words in the area.
Do any of us really have CONTROL over our lives? There are times when I use to think so. One area I believed we had total control of our morals, values & principals. I mean that’s what makes us who we are, right? I sit here shaking my head in sadness over the way I use to be. Over the reality of how I must have hurt some of the people around me. Who was I to feel so RIGHTEOUS?
I have learned that life is ever changing, evolving, morphing us into new directions - ADVENTURES! Life does not stand still. If it did, we would stagnate. Oh yes, I agree that CHANGE can seem frightening at times. In a dysfunctional sort of way we become comfortable within our discomfort. It’s a familiar state of being… something we can count on day in, day out especially when we feel that we can’t count on anything else. There is the knowing that tomorrow will be mostly exactly the same as today and I know that I can survive that as I’ve done a hundred times before.
The Universe has a way of changing us. You don’t believe me? Ask yourself this… and I don’t need to know the answer… are you the exact same person you were 10 years ago? 20 years ago? 30 years ago? Do you look the same? Have the same belief system you had then? I know that I’ve changed in countless ways..
PS:
THANKS sa mga tumulong para matapos tong blogpost na ito... kay RENSIS CLAUS!!!! ive done it well!!
Credits for the following:
*FELICIDAD T.E. SAGALONGOS. for her DIKSIYUNARYONG INGLES-PILIPINO, PILIPINO-INGLES.
*sa MS WORD. dahil nagagamit ko ung synonyms nya.! hahahahaha!!
Your always there if I intend to write something in ENGLISH.. hhahaha!
- - -TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
Monday, June 8, 2009 | 8:10 AM
CHANGE
I woke up at 3am [[aga noh?Hwoalang. Its just so “nakakailang” when somebody at your back is staring while you are writing your post especially if it is very personal…tama?]] to continue writing my not yet-finish blogpost. FYI, this post is already 2 weeks old on my drafts. So yon, I decided to finish it so that I can reduce my already balky drafts. Here it goes:
While I am reminiscing some wonderful thoughts of my past, my ego started to knock again over the door of my mind.. saying “change the reality!!!”. Then I began typing my first words in the area.
Do any of us really have CONTROL over our lives? There are times when I use to think so. One area I believed we had total control of our morals, values & principals. I mean that’s what makes us who we are, right? I sit here shaking my head in sadness over the way I use to be. Over the reality of how I must have hurt some of the people around me. Who was I to feel so RIGHTEOUS?
I have learned that life is ever changing, evolving, morphing us into new directions - ADVENTURES! Life does not stand still. If it did, we would stagnate. Oh yes, I agree that CHANGE can seem frightening at times. In a dysfunctional sort of way we become comfortable within our discomfort. It’s a familiar state of being… something we can count on day in, day out especially when we feel that we can’t count on anything else. There is the knowing that tomorrow will be mostly exactly the same as today and I know that I can survive that as I’ve done a hundred times before.
The Universe has a way of changing us. You don’t believe me? Ask yourself this… and I don’t need to know the answer… are you the exact same person you were 10 years ago? 20 years ago? 30 years ago? Do you look the same? Have the same belief system you had then? I know that I’ve changed in countless ways..
PS:
THANKS sa mga tumulong para matapos tong blogpost na ito… kay RENSIS CLAUS!!!! ive done it well!!
Credits for the following:
*FELICIDAD T.E. SAGALONGOS. for her DIKSIYUNARYONG INGLES-PILIPINO, PILIPINO-INGLES.
*sa MS WORD. dahil nagagamit ko ung synonyms nya.! hahahahaha!!
Your always there if I intend to write something in ENGLISH.. hhahaha!
- - -TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
Sunday, June 7, 2009 | 8:07 PM
"nyahahahaha" WITH MY SISTERS...
first scene: SA BAHAY..
im holding my TWILIGHT BOOK. then denise, my younger sister approached me...
"kuya, tara manuod ng twilight."
"halah.. nakaksawa na kaya.. saulo ko na ata lines nun eee. pati busina ng mga koche! iba nman. "
..sumabat ang ate diane ko.. ung panganay..
"totoy, showing na daw sa december ang MOONLIGHT."
"moonlight??"
"ano ga are..."
"baka NEW MOON?!! sa november pa acheng.."
Scene 2: SA KWARTO..
my sisters are talking about the latest songs on MTV.
i asked: "sino gang kumanta ng JUST DANCE?"
denise, our bunso answered : "SI LADY LAGA."
scene 3: SA SALA..
we're talking about miley cyrus, selena gomez and demi lovato.. we are comparing those singers with some of pinoy’s stars..
“ate dian, narinig mo naga ang BREAK OUT ni mile cyrus..?” sbe ko..
“oo.. kinanta na nga yun sa asap.. mas magaling si WENG..”
“WENG?!”
“WENG CONSTANTINO!”
“tungeee! Baka yeng constantino!”
.*natatawa na lang ako sa ate dian ko. Heywan ko! Simula nang mging Registered Nurse yan.. mejo nawindang na xa sa mga latest issue. Susko! Puro DUTYna lang kase ata ang nasa utak nuneeee!! Pero, akoy proud sa kanya!!
scene 4: SA TEREYS..
nagpapalamig lang kme sa labas.. umuulan kase ng pagkalakas lakas.. i am lying on the ''KATRE''.. denise my youngest sister is feeding baby koen. and ate diane is just sitting on the planter box busy texting.
sbe ko : ineng, ano yang pinakakain mo kay utoy?
denise: JELATIN.
"eehh?? wait! made from ano yan?"
"ha?"
"made from saaan????!!!!"
"aahh.. in the PHILIPPINES.."
"bute naman..."
"bket kuya??"
"sbe kasi ni mam garlitos, pag daw made in CHINA, ay itapon na.. wag n daw kakaen ng gayon!!"
....biglang naintriga ang ate diane... kinuha ung jelatin ni utoy at tiningnan ang ingredients at chineck ang nutrtious facts..
sbe ng ate diane: "bket daw totoy?"
"sbe ni mam, nakakabutas daw ng damit ang jelatin from china.."
"ehh??"
"oo...."
sabat ule si denise..
"alen daw mabubutas ate?"
"damit.."
"ha?"
"damit!"
"anong damit?"
"damit?? damiit! dammmmeeeeeEETT?!!!!!!!"
..ang kapatid kong bingi.. bow!
scene 5: SA MALL..
etong pangyayaring eto ay super matagal na.. bata pa lang neto si denise nmeng bunso. mga 9 years old ata... katatapos lang ng birthday nya..
denise: "kuya tingnan mo. may regalo saken ang ninang ko."
ako: "anong regalo?"
"jacket. cute. color pink. parang original."
"eehh? patingin nga.. anong tatak?"
..."sanrio. " sabay abot nung jaket..
"cute nga ineng..".. sabay buklat.. nabasa ko ang tatak sa likod.. "HETTO KILLY."
denise: "cute kuya di ga?"
scene 6: SA may TV..
Kadarating ko lang pram barbershop. i need to take a bath at sobrang makati laang.
ang eksena'y nanunuod ang ate diane at si ineng denise.
sabe ko: "ate.. halata gang ginupitan ako? kakainis.."
ate: "di nga.. san ka ga nagpagupit? pero maganda.."
"sa hair studio."
"ahhh.. ayos nmn. dapat binawasan mo ang bangs mo."
"ala... xa akoy maliligo muna.."
"totoy!! ako muna! jusko! mag seseven na may duty pa ako!"
"mabilis lang nmn ako!!"
"ay sha sige.. tapusin ko muna areng 'asan ka MARIWANA' "
"ha?!!! tange! baka MARUHA?!!!"
**abangan nyo na lang mga mga susunod na scenes.. I forgot the past funny laughables conversations nmeneeee.. ofr sure…dadame pa ito!!
Ahihi…
- - -TOTOY [[ranieLorenzo]]
And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends